Wednesday, November 9, 2016

Day 1

She came home crying today. A good friend of hers from school is moving because his family is terrified. All I could do was listen and comfort. Assure her I did everything I could to prevent this.

She asked: why can't WE move.

Too complicated.

She asked: what happens now?

I said: I don't know.

She asked: are things going to get really bad?

I said: ...maybe.

It was 3:30 in the afternoon, today, in our kitchen- the blinds were open, but there wasn't much sun.  I wanted to tell my daughter everything was going to be ok- but why? How can I look in her face and tell her something I'm not sure I believe?

I told her we'll be together, no matter what.

And we sat on the couch all night watching YouTube videos.

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What the FUCK am I supposed to do??? How do you parent like this?? My heart is broken.

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